Random thoughts of mine.

This is a scene that takes my breath away. It was a gorgeous day out, had rained that morning, but then it cleared up, the sun came out and it was warm again. We went hiking in the woods two miles to see this, and to me it was worth it. The tree in that picture was in the middle of a lake, as was the little patch of grass next to it. I think a lot of nature is beautiful. A cousin watched me one time just before it rained (I didn't know he was watching)... I tilted my head slightly toward the sky, and when the fat drops of rain started falling, I closed my eyes and let them fall on my face. He told me "You see the rain how I see it. I saw how you looked at the clouds, you see more than just some clouds and stupid rain." He gets me, he understands. Most people look at me like I'm crazy when I just close my eyes and take in the sounds and smells of nature. I also believe every season has a particular smell to it, and you can tell when it's coming. Fall has a crisp, dead leaves smell...... when snow is coming the air here smells so cold and fresh. Summer has a variety of smells, the warmness in the air, around here there's a sort of "fish" type smell because we're so close to the water..... and spring...ahh spring. The smell of spring is like everything in the ground being "reborn". It's got a newness to it.

I know that all sounds weird. I really do. But frankly, I really don't care how it sounds. My kids know the difference too.....right before it rains, Kelsey will say "It smells like wet cardboard, it's gonna rain"...she has put the smell right before the rain to an image of wet cardboard..... not exactly what I would say, but it's a good analogy.

The strange part is that nature isn't the only thing that stirs up this array of emotions in me. Music makes me the same way. If I hear lyrics in a song that strike a chord in me, I will listen to more songs by the artist to get a "feel" for their music. Some musicians stick with me. Some don't. It just depends on their other songs....there's some musicians that have one or two songs I absolutely love.....but I listen to their other songs and there's just not the heart into those...If they don't have their heart into their music, I can't listen to it. I suppose that's why I like older music too (like 1950's type music). They put so much into their music...and it wasn't that screaming or "growling" crap either. It was real "put my heart into my music, sing it like it's my last song" type music. They loved what they did......and usually didn't start out doing it for money.

Money is a powerful and evil thing. lol. Most people now don't know what it's like to live in poverty. Three children and three mortgages are harsh to the pocketbook. We try the best we can, it's all anyone can do anymore with today's economy the way it is. Especially in Michigan. I wouldn't have to be in the line of work I'm in if there were any jobs around here that pay more than 7.40 an hour. And I have college education in small business management. I will eventually go back and get into another field, I eventually would like to be a zoologist or do advertising. It would be very nice to live in an area that had zoos or advertising companies for either of those jobs though lol. Another great job would be some sort of design thing....as I like to play around with backgrounds and making pages of all sorts. I know I've gotten way off-base here, but there are so many random thoughts running through my head right now, and I'm trying to get some of them down so I don't forget them. I tend to have a horrible memory, and love to write down events when they happen to keep them fresh in my memory. Or when I have a random bunch of thoughts, I blog about them lol.

I guess this is all for now...I'm sure I'll be blogging on here quite a bit, I love to write.